Love

If I can't find love..
I have to be love itself.
I'm just borrowing a moment from heaven.
I need to make the best out of every moment.

For there are no happenstances.
Everything happens for a reason.

I have to let go of every sadness
Replace it with a thing that's better.
When I can't find happiness.
I will make it. Because I can.
And because I don't want to waste this life
looming in misery.

Because there are greater things
That are coming.
That I haven't known yet.
That have not even crossed my mind yet.

I'll always be thankful for whatever life throws at me.
It made me who I am today.
A better me.

More than Myself

I want to be better
I want to overcome things
get better at this game called life

I tried yet now I don't need
to rush into things
I just need a time to take things
at a right pace.

What's the right thing to  say?
What's the right thing to do?
Take it easy and see all these things
are learning

Cause I am me
I am more
I am more than myself
striving to be better
Better than myself.

Me Mystery

They say I'm mysterious. I like to keep an air of ambiguity and mystery. It leaves people enchanted. I don't post much stuff about my personal life or any pictures regarding my activities on social media. Just my creations, Not what I do and who I hang out with - At least sparingly. I like to be anonymous. And when I die I hope no one goes to my funeral. I would rather be burned and my ashes thrown in the ocean. I don't want anyone to remember me. Like I never existed. I don't hold so much ego on myself to let people know. It is not about self-worth, It's not even about selflessness. Maybe apathy but in a good way. It's just probably nothing. Not everything has to have a reason. Sometimes it's just preference. Unless that is the reason. One can always reflect and have moments of epiphany. I have made at least someone smile in this lifetime. That is enough for me. I have no regrets over anything. Everything that has come my way is the accumulation of what I am today and for that, I am thankful. Thankful for everything. I don't know why at this hour I wrote this. lol.

Maybe A Moment's Frustration? What Should It Be Called?

This is going to be long and deep.

I woke up to people fighting. Aside from that, I am having an internal struggle from constrasting point of views, wondering how I should feel and which path I should take that is If I should be a slave to human conditions or not. But isn't it very human and just natural to react and respond to things that are coming our way? Even in science there's always a reaction when there's an input. Some teachings that I have learned have told me to not be a slave to human conditions. If we have something good happen to us, we react to that condition, if it's bad we also react. Whatever condition we undergo we become a slave to it and that is how we respond and feel. I want to cut these feeling of being under control by certain conditions. But how? If I strip these things from myself, Would I still hold my humanity? What makes us human?
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What should one do? Society never taught us how. But what is a human being like when a human being is free from reacting to conditions that they were given?
Is it freedom? What is that feeling to longer be held captive by your emotions that were  dictated by the present situation and condition we are in? I am having a hard time with how I should approach this, even if the teachings tell me to just follow the path of least resistance. I don't want to be left with answers like "just go with the flow" or "take it easy" because even with those mindset I still will react. And the point is to stop reacting. And then we go back in circles asking what is left there if I stop feeling. It is hard to be forthcoming when you are frustrated.

I feel helpless and stupid.

I Am Asking The Universe.

I will not be embarassed and express what I so desire. Universe, I ask you to give me this man I will love and cherish for as long as he wants me to. I'll try to be more specific. I want a guy that has dark hair with some soft brown or blonde tones. Blue eyes or any light eyes like hazel. Slim-medium or toned built. Sharp nose like Chris Evans. 5'10 (that's just my height in heels) or taller. sweet, thoughtful and protective. Can carry me and throw me on the bed. Sees more to me than what meets the eye. This I solemnly ask Universe. Come to me. So mote it be.

Filled With Feelings Of Love

I am filled with feelings of love. I feel so much warmth inside. Anything is possible within by reach.
I am in the frontier of my dreams that are happening.

Everything is Happy.

Some people are miserable. You know why you are miserable? Because you don't know how to appreciate the things that you have. Have you ever thanked yourself for being alive? Thank the water? thank yourself you have complete senses? Be thankful! Life should be happy! EVERYTHING that Humans want and do is to get happiness as the result.BE NICE TO YOURSELF and everything will follow on. It starts WITH YOU. Not with some guy or some woman. I learned this the hard way. It starts with HOW YOU SEE THE WORLD. Not with how you see the world because you lack something in your life. MAKE IT WORK and the universe will make it happen for you!

I Found It. The Thing That's Simple Yet Seems Somewhat Hidden

I may not have a job, a boyfriend, a family that's in good terms with each other, I may not be rich, I can't even afford to buy my own shoes. But my life is perfect. I appreciate everything I have, and have experienced in my life, and everything about me. My life will just keep getting better and better. Every single time I find solace,I look and pause just anywhere and think I am grateful to be here. To exist. Grateful with every fiber of my being.Everything is beautiful. Every.single.thing. I went from a person who committed suicide 3 times to becoming this person I find so beautiful (in my opinion, at least) inside who finds light in every single thing. I am fucking proud of myself. I know the secret to life.

I'm always thankful.

I have been brainwashing myself for at least 2 months by watching videos of positive affirmations. law of attraction, gratitude, empowerment, and by looping recordings of abundance and prosperity.
I tell you, it works. I have never been so positive in my entire life. I am the most happiest person I can find.
And I tell you, my energy is very different now. It shines brightly, so bright that I can make someone smile with just being my loving self.
It may not mean much but positivity, gratitude and kindness goes beyond. It is so empowering so beautiful. Every single day I have a thought of gratitude or being thankful, and while I am riding in front of a jeepney whenever I go out, I force not to cry because of so much gratitude.
I am thankful for the things I am seeing, the jeepney is moving I see many wonderful colors. Thankful for the people moving, Thankful for the happy children riding on a jeep, Thankful for the many different faces of people whether they'd be happy or sad, knowing that when they are sad that their day can turn for the better. Thankful for the hustle and bustle of everyday life.
Thankful for the wind that soothes my warmed skin, thank you for the sun that shines beautifully in all the places that makes vivid colors.
Everything is energy.
I am thankful for the internet I have, Thankful for my hands that I can type so I can share this wonderful message, Thankful for the fine weather and thankful that it is a quiet and peaceful night.
Thankful for the person who reads this, Knowing that they will have a time to think about what they have just read, being thankful and I hope they get to be thankful everyday Because it truly is amazing.
Listen to positive affirmations on your headphones at a super low volume, one you can't hear but there's some volumes there. It will get you nd when it does your life will change.
I am thankful for this website.
I am thankful with every fiber of my being. Everything that has happened in my life is a validation of who I am and I am only going to get better.
We will never be perfect because we will always have a room for improvement. We are continuously evolving creatures and we will never be complete because we always keep adding better and better things about ourselves. Follow your happiness. DO what makes you happy.

Feel The Beauty.. Of Everything!

I'm not one for proselytizing, but for me, my experiences and my friends (who don't even follow it) the law of attraction is real.

My mother always says she has no money she has no money, always thinks about money. Not the lack, She just thinks about money yet always mentions money. LOL She renovated the whole house.
I love dolls, there's this  limited edition doll that i wanted but no means to get it here in my country but one day i was scrolling through groups someone was selling my dream doll and for a great affordable price. After just imagining it a few months ago,  logically I know i can't have it but I refuse to think that way and let the desire go and just be calm and surrender that and voila. then it arrived at my house after a few months.
I just know something what I want will come.

You desire something, you focus on it with good feeling, you imagine it. and do not let any negative thought break that good feeling thought and you let go and don't question the process of how it will come to your life. Just let it go and always think things and abundance will come always.  Logic is out. do not use it. the law of attraction will handle that how. For me it really does work.
and please if you're having a bad day SMILE. force yourself. and appreciate small things. just look at your hand. isn't it a wonder you can see your hand? they are nice. and so are the surroundings. take a deep breathe and bask the beauty... :)

Good thoughts  attract good feelings, Good feelings attract good things, good things attract a good reality, good reality attract a good life. and then you become that most wonderful and prosperous person you desire and you wish everyone is as positive as you and realize and cry how many times you felt stupid for being negative when there is so much more to everything than what we see, hear, taste, smell, touch and experience. See everything as beautiful. even the things you don't want. and everything will be beautiful. Everything is beautiful.

Brainwash Yourself

People don't realize this but everyday they are brainwashing themselves by what they are experiencing and being influenced by. Most people watch TV that has less emotional and intellectual value. News? nothing but bad news, I don't know why people digest all these bad news. Rarely good news. If you watch that for 365 days.. it becomes a habit. Why would people get involved in things that they are not directly involved or affected by?
People do not know they develop paradigms( patterns) on their subconscious mind. Now everyone is brainwashed that life has many problems. that life is hard life is hell. See?

Life is beautiful. Everything s beautiful. The bad is beautiful it made us who we are.Everything has purpose and there is no coincidence.
They teach  you being selfish is bad but it's not true, How can you help others if you can't be selfish enough to see what makes you happy, Only with one's true happiness they can help others and flourish.
They tell you that you are small and you are not the center of the universe.
But you are wonderful and you are the center of the universe. We all are.
Society teach you to divide but we are all the same. One love.

Do not worry about being incomplete. - We all are. Because we can never be done and we can never be complete because we are always growing. We are all imperfectly perfect. We always have room for development, We can always change.

Another day, another happiness

I am happy and I will always continue to strive to be happy.
I am one with the essence of happiness.
I appreciate everything.

Good day

Andreia Guerrero, 33 in 3 days.

I, Andreia Guerrero. Would honestly say that I am proud of myself. For being able to last this long considering the hardships of life being a transsexual woman. I have been bullied all through-out school, and have commited suicide more than twice, being used and treated terribly by people, by men, being negative and everything, have really come into being a person that I want to. I may not be a powerful, rich nor influential person, not a beautifully, drop-dead gorgeous woman with a perfect body. But aside from all my imperfections, I am imperfectly perfect and I am proud of myself for surviving 32 years and in 3 days 33 years of my life. You only become stronger everyday and you laugh of all the bad memories. Grateful for them because they made me who I am and my most powerful weapon that I share with you all is that everyone needs to smile everyday. Even at their darkest hour. It transforms you and makes you appreciate even the smallest of things. I love myself, I don't care if I am single for 8 years or probably for life, as long as I am happy and If I am not, I will always smile. To hell with it all. I am an effin' survivor that will always smile and always look at the beautiful side of life

Vitamin B17 - A Cure For Cancer

Cure for Cancer? Vitamin B17. Just eat plenty of Apricot seeds.Of course they won't tell you this. Cancer is a multi-billion dollar industry. And they care more about the money than the people.

Don't trust the FDA.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-jSD4YOACsQ

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http://www.creationliberty.com/articles/cureforcancer.php

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Songwriting Scraps 001

Everyday I'm reminded

of the air that I feel

Every passing day

trying

I'm trying to open

the door to a sanctuary

that's within me

First Album Plans

I had an epiphany about what the theme for my first album should be. It is about love for one's self.
Finding love in yourself for me, is the very hardest thing to do. It takes time and it doesn't always go smoothly.

Fasting: My Personal Experience

I am an experienced faster. If you want to remove your illness try a  3 day fast. Nothing , no food just drinking water.
1st day - hardest day to fight hunger- tongue white at the end of the day or 2
2nd day - a little fatigue or maybe some headache you still think of food
3rd day - you could vomit. tongue still white breathe stinks you
4th day - weakness. you could also vomit if you didn't the 3rd day
5th day - everything is almost clearing up you don't feel hungry at all
6th day - same as 5th day but do remember to take water always to avoid the headaches. but u don't feel the need to eat. and skin is clearing up.

that is how long I fasted. But only take soups and liquids first week of breaking the fast. And you realize your arthritis is gone and other illnesses. Clearer complexion. I feel someone my complexion was better.

A Little Appreciation For Myself

I am a chronically depressed transgender woman.
I think looking back in my life, it probably is not the most exciting.
The sex was exciting before transition.
But with all the downs I am pretty much amazed at myself
For having created art that even I appreciate.

I really wonder how I lasted this long in the world
Now I choose to believe that everything is a miracle.

I have my own way of pronouncing Tagalog words..

Makati - Makaty (like Katy Perry)
Bilis - Veeh lized.
Kamay - Ka Mey
Laguna - Laguney
Baso - Base
Ampalaya - Ampalayey
Unan - You nan
malandi - Maleynd
kurtina - kurteyn
daliri - da lire (like the instrument)
lamesa - la mest
daan - da eyn
lalake - la lake (as in body of water)
babae - ba bey
baboy - bey boy
sahig - sa hayg
harang - haRANG
dumi - dumay
ewan - you wan
kadiri - ka dire

Who You Are. Who You Truly Are

Fat, Ugly, Weird, Old, Creepy, or whatever it is

At the end of the day,
It's just an adjective.
It doesn't define you.

You need to see past the definition
To see your true self.

For who you are
For who you truly are.