Love

If I can't find love..
I have to be love itself.
I'm just borrowing a moment from heaven.
I need to make the best out of every moment.

For there are no happenstances.
Everything happens for a reason.

I have to let go of every sadness
Replace it with a thing that's better.
When I can't find happiness.
I will make it. Because I can.
And because I don't want to waste this life
looming in misery.

Because there are greater things
That are coming.
That I haven't known yet.
That have not even crossed my mind yet.

I'll always be thankful for whatever life throws at me.
It made me who I am today.
A better me.

More than Myself

I want to be better
I want to overcome things
get better at this game called life

I tried yet now I don't need
to rush into things
I just need a time to take things
at a right pace.

What's the right thing to  say?
What's the right thing to do?
Take it easy and see all these things
are learning

Cause I am me
I am more
I am more than myself
striving to be better
Better than myself.

Me Mystery

They say I'm mysterious. I like to keep an air of ambiguity and mystery. It leaves people enchanted. I don't post much stuff about my personal life or any pictures regarding my activities on social media. Just my creations, Not what I do and who I hang out with - At least sparingly. I like to be anonymous. And when I die I hope no one goes to my funeral. I would rather be burned and my ashes thrown in the ocean. I don't want anyone to remember me. Like I never existed. I don't hold so much ego on myself to let people know. It is not about self-worth, It's not even about selflessness. Maybe apathy but in a good way. It's just probably nothing. Not everything has to have a reason. Sometimes it's just preference. Unless that is the reason. One can always reflect and have moments of epiphany. I have made at least someone smile in this lifetime. That is enough for me. I have no regrets over anything. Everything that has come my way is the accumulation of what I am today and for that, I am thankful. Thankful for everything. I don't know why at this hour I wrote this. lol.

Maybe A Moment's Frustration? What Should It Be Called?

This is going to be long and deep.

I woke up to people fighting. Aside from that, I am having an internal struggle from constrasting point of views, wondering how I should feel and which path I should take that is If I should be a slave to human conditions or not. But isn't it very human and just natural to react and respond to things that are coming our way? Even in science there's always a reaction when there's an input. Some teachings that I have learned have told me to not be a slave to human conditions. If we have something good happen to us, we react to that condition, if it's bad we also react. Whatever condition we undergo we become a slave to it and that is how we respond and feel. I want to cut these feeling of being under control by certain conditions. But how? If I strip these things from myself, Would I still hold my humanity? What makes us human?
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What should one do? Society never taught us how. But what is a human being like when a human being is free from reacting to conditions that they were given?
Is it freedom? What is that feeling to longer be held captive by your emotions that were  dictated by the present situation and condition we are in? I am having a hard time with how I should approach this, even if the teachings tell me to just follow the path of least resistance. I don't want to be left with answers like "just go with the flow" or "take it easy" because even with those mindset I still will react. And the point is to stop reacting. And then we go back in circles asking what is left there if I stop feeling. It is hard to be forthcoming when you are frustrated.

I feel helpless and stupid.

I Am Asking The Universe.

I will not be embarassed and express what I so desire. Universe, I ask you to give me this man I will love and cherish for as long as he wants me to. I'll try to be more specific. I want a guy that has dark hair with some soft brown or blonde tones. Blue eyes or any light eyes like hazel. Slim-medium or toned built. Sharp nose like Chris Evans. 5'10 (that's just my height in heels) or taller. sweet, thoughtful and protective. Can carry me and throw me on the bed. Sees more to me than what meets the eye. This I solemnly ask Universe. Come to me. So mote it be.

Filled With Feelings Of Love

I am filled with feelings of love. I feel so much warmth inside. Anything is possible within by reach.
I am in the frontier of my dreams that are happening.

Everything is Happy.

Some people are miserable. You know why you are miserable? Because you don't know how to appreciate the things that you have. Have you ever thanked yourself for being alive? Thank the water? thank yourself you have complete senses? Be thankful! Life should be happy! EVERYTHING that Humans want and do is to get happiness as the result.BE NICE TO YOURSELF and everything will follow on. It starts WITH YOU. Not with some guy or some woman. I learned this the hard way. It starts with HOW YOU SEE THE WORLD. Not with how you see the world because you lack something in your life. MAKE IT WORK and the universe will make it happen for you!